|Posted by [email protected] on June 22, 2014 at 8:40 PM|
Hi you guys! I'm soooo sorry that it's been so long since my last post. It has been a while since I last spoke with you all. Here are some of the things going on in my life.....
School! Yep, 365 days a year Family! My baby sister Nyla, age 2, and Sydney, 9 months. They keep us busy! Chores. *sigh, I'm trying I'm trying, haha! How wonderful... Anyway!
I've been fasting quite often. I'm still trying to grasp all that God has for me, but unfortunately, I keep getting in the way!! In between school, my funny family, chores (the dreaded chores) and pretty much my own selfish desires, I can never seperate myself from the duties and "fun" of life, and buckle down; reading the bible, praying, feeding my spirit (more on this a bit later) and just spending time with God, my Father, who I desperately want to know! But, I am having trouble doing my part of growing our relationship. I am a Christian, a person who believes in God (the Father), Jesus (the Son) and the Holy spirit (God's Spirit sent to help lead us, guide us, and have a real relationship with us).
Here are 3 scriptures...
Micah 3:8 ESV "But as for me, I am filled with power, with the Spirit of the LORD, and with justice and might, to declare to Jacob his transgression and to Israel his sin."
Acts 2:1-5 ESV "When the day of Pentecost arrived, they were all together in one place. And suddenly there came from heaven a sound like a mighty rushing wind, and it filled the entire house where they were sitting. And divided tongues as of fire appeared to them and rested on each one of them. And they were all filled with the Holy Spirit and began to speak in other tongues as the Spirit gave them utterance. Now there were dwelling in Jerusalem Jews, devout men from every nation under heaven."
Luke 3:16 ESV "John answered them all, saying, “I baptize you with water, but he who is mightier than I is coming, the strap of whose sandals I am not worthy to untie. He will baptize you with the Holy Spirit and fire."
So, yeah!! The thing is, I am having trouble hearing Him speak. When I began this blog, about 2 weeks before May 17th, I was lost and really trying to hear God! After remembering this blog, I picked it back up May 17th, dropped it again, and here I am, back on June 22nd! (Sorry for the delay by the way!) But little by little, I believe that God is talking. By placing positive things in my heart, giving me wisdom at unexpected times, and convicting me and saying "You remember..." "You know better..." "Do it now..." when I know I just read that I'm not supposed to do whatever I'm doing at the moment. There have been a few things everyday, that have me believing that maybe, just maybe, He has sent His Holy Spirit and He lives in me! Just yesterday, as I was talking to God in my head about my selfish desires concerning my appearance, I heard, not in my ear, or in my own voice, but randomly in the middle of me talking in my mind, revealing to me a truth about my own desires. Right. In the middle. Of my selfish. request. I knew it was Him!!
I want God to send His Holy Spirit to me so I can grow deeper in relationship with Him. I want to get to know Him personally. I know He loves me, and the bible tells me this, but I want to be able to hear God say "I love you daughter". When I'm at my school's lab building, and I see a girl crying, I want to hear God speak so I can deliever the message to the girl and bring comfort, hope, and faith in God to her! When I hear kids talking about how they don't believe in God, not only do I want my life to display that God is real, but I want to be able to have the courage, and the right words to say, or do, what needs to be said or done, to spark hope and faith in God. When I'm in tough situations and I don't know what to do, or say, I want to hear and feel God nudging me to make the right moves. When it's late at night and I know I didn't wash the dishes or clean my room as my mom instructed, I want God to give me the strength, will power, and an obedient spirit to not only get the job done, but to do it with excellence! Although it's nice to tell people that I am a Christian, I'm not perfect! If I didn't have God leading me, or even an idea on how God wants me to grow, I'd probably be leading people off of a cliff! Despite who I am and my short comings, I want my life to show that God is with me, so they'll know that He can be with them too. I want people to desire God based on what they see in my life when His Spirit comes- His kindness working in me, His wisdom speaking thru me, His faithfulness showing my faith in Him, and His heart, loving His people by using me.
I understand that everything and everyone in God requires growth so I'm not expecting to walk on water like Jesus, or to become instant perfection, or even to be a good person all the time! But, I am expecting to see God move in new ways and to be used by Him more. I am expecting to reflect His image by allowing Him to take over and take the lead in my life. Most of all, I am expecting to know Him like I know a friend, and I am expecting to know without a doubt that He lives in me and I am being lead by His Spirit.
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